My feeling now...

I am not sure if I should just keep holding on or let go. Its stupid to hold on to something that just keeps hurting you, BUT it's also stupid to let go of everything you've ever wanted...

13 Orphans

So casually playing mahjong today, and my mate gets 13 orphans. FUCKING LUCKIEST KUNT. Thats like royal flush but thirteen times harder....

Hugging A Cactus

I remember someone told me,

How hard is it to love someone who doesn't even care?...Its like hugging a cactus. You know it's alive, but it wouldn't react. And the tighter you hug it, the greater pain you feel
Why you so hard to get ?!?!?! ><"

Chilling..

Sometimes I dont really like chilling, sometimes after school or something I just wanna go straight home. Because of today I spent $50 doing random shit maybe even shitall whilst I couldve saved up if I went home ><"

I Seriously Need Time To Myself

Like fucking seriously, I am always running around going out, I just want a day I just stay home or do what i actually want. I just wanna fucking relax and not worry about problems, a proper study sesh would be nice too... But instead I am always running around doing shitall and I dont even gain from it...I think its best if I be selfish for now and stop thinking and caring for others. Nothing is wrong with that right?

Studying..

study study study ><" I seriously needa find time to start studying and needa stop going out too much

It All Started With You...

The day we met, we were friends with a click of a finger. I still remember that day. 4years ago, Carols By Candle light in Hurstville. It was after that day, it all started. First we were friends, nothing interesting, people who call eachother up to come out, pretty much just meetup and chill and play internet cafe. Then slowly changed to drinkups, smoking when we go out and more shit. Months went by and fwark we got pretty close, slowly made our own little brotherhood shit. It is cute if we think of it now but fuck we were all like blood brothers, it started it of with just 5people, months went by and one by one people started to drift off and change fuckedup-ly. Then it was just me and you. We have been through shit together, I wouldnt say alot but its quite abit. The 7am Fairfield days is an example LOL fwark so much has happened between us in the last 4years... And now I am not gonna see you as often as we use to. I am gonna be honest, I am gonna fuckn miss you, everything started with you, being who I am now, smoking, the girls, fucking everything....I am not angry, I am more happy that I met you in my life cause I know you will always be a brother to me, no what happens, I will always be by your side. Hearing that you will leave the family, shattered my heart but I know where your coming from I would leave too...but idk its just hard on my end. Family is family, most people in the family can go fuck themselves haha. All I know is that, we are still brothers, and hopefully chill out like we used to 4years ago...