Sometimes Its Not About Crying Or Being Weak, Its About Having A Fucking Heart...

Goodluck~

Hope you have fun at your dance, Like I would text you and shyt but I dont know if you were dancing today or not so to save the embarrassment I will type it up for the whooooole world to see LOL Goodluck at your comp! (:

Not All Humans Are Equal, Some Are Born Superior

Everyone has their own different opinions but I think its true. Some are born swifter of foot, some with greater beauty, some are born into poverty and others born sick and feeble. Every human is inherently different which is why there is struggle and competition.

Need To Relaxxxxxx

I think too much, always planning my next move or like thinking of a scenario which probably will be least likely to happen. I dont know if its a bad thing or not. When I am alone and bored, all I do is think think think think about anything pretty much, love, my future, practically anything. I need something to take my mind of things...

Draw With Me

I remember watching this like 3years ago, it was like my favourite video on youtube. It was soooo cuuuuutee aswell :3 Just goes to show you can't always have everything </3

Something To Do

Yayyyyy Finally something to do today. Head up city chill out and do shyt all probably LOL I don't mind having a smoke looking at the darling habour, sosososo pretty at night :D hopefully run into someone and make the day more interesting :3

Lan Kwai Fong 2

Watching this movie tomorrow SWEEEEEET (x

I Found This Interesting

I was so fuckn bored so I decided to read/watch random shyt like I always do and I stumbled upon this. That there is a theory that the heart is the base clock for the speed of the human thought process. Like why does an instant feel like several seconds to race drivers or why does a minute feel like eternity for lovers in close contact, Its because the human thought process accelerates when their heart rate increases. horhorhor :D

I fuckin love spiderman threads, they are so epic LOL

Blade and Soul

ASDFGHJKL I WANNA PLAY THIS GAAME SOO BAAADDD. About 1 year to go ):

Today...

Nothing interesting happens nowadays, all I did today was go eat lunch with couple friends and chilled out. Then afterwards ran into another friend and we both went to apply for a job horhorhor

Relationships

This topic always keeps me interested hehehe. Idk if I am being hypocritical or not but I dont like it how people get into a relationship then break up let say 1month or so later. I find it really stupid but I guess you learn something out of it. I guess right now I keep seeing these stuff alot lately. Maybe its the fact I have been raised up through my concept of loyalty, that I stick by the goose story. It goes something like '' If a male or female goose finds a partner and one of them dies from an unexpected event and the other lives on, that goose who lives on will seclude from other geese while she lives on as a widow till she/he dies''. So whether your close friend or partner is right or wrong, you still follow eachother till the end, but then in alot of recent events, I think its better if you just follow your heart lol. But then again, who am I to judge if its right or wrong, do as you please, this is just my thought lol

What I feel Like Now

Power, if I only had power! Power to escape this place, power to rule the world. I desire power !!!!! (:

Lifee

My concept of life is idk lol. I see it as, life is a one way street, no shortcuts, no left or right turn, in the end you just die. Another thing is I hate the concept of ''YOLO'' like, it's so fkn faggot LOL. Weell I just want to point out that if there is a god out there, his treating me like shit and life is just a one way street =P

Money

Who says money isn't everything, it almost pretty much everything. In movies they tell you its not, love overcomes it this and that. Truly what I believe it does overcome it but in reality money blinds alot of things eg friendship,love ( gold diggers ) etc... You need it to survive through everyday to maintain a proper food source and shelter. Dirty money, legit money, no matter what kind of money it is, its still money in the end. Hence you need money to survive through life (:

Here We Go

Ok I stopped blogging because I found it stupid and I felt like a fagggg also I prefer that if you want to know about me or whats happening, you make the effort to call/text/ see me. But in the end I guess I will start doing it again for this just 1 person who probably looks at it, soooo fck you and have a nice dayyyy muahahah >=]

My feeling now...

I am not sure if I should just keep holding on or let go. Its stupid to hold on to something that just keeps hurting you, BUT it's also stupid to let go of everything you've ever wanted...

13 Orphans

So casually playing mahjong today, and my mate gets 13 orphans. FUCKING LUCKIEST KUNT. Thats like royal flush but thirteen times harder....

Hugging A Cactus

I remember someone told me,

How hard is it to love someone who doesn't even care?...Its like hugging a cactus. You know it's alive, but it wouldn't react. And the tighter you hug it, the greater pain you feel
Why you so hard to get ?!?!?! ><"

Chilling..

Sometimes I dont really like chilling, sometimes after school or something I just wanna go straight home. Because of today I spent $50 doing random shit maybe even shitall whilst I couldve saved up if I went home ><"

I Seriously Need Time To Myself

Like fucking seriously, I am always running around going out, I just want a day I just stay home or do what i actually want. I just wanna fucking relax and not worry about problems, a proper study sesh would be nice too... But instead I am always running around doing shitall and I dont even gain from it...I think its best if I be selfish for now and stop thinking and caring for others. Nothing is wrong with that right?

Studying..

study study study ><" I seriously needa find time to start studying and needa stop going out too much

It All Started With You...

The day we met, we were friends with a click of a finger. I still remember that day. 4years ago, Carols By Candle light in Hurstville. It was after that day, it all started. First we were friends, nothing interesting, people who call eachother up to come out, pretty much just meetup and chill and play internet cafe. Then slowly changed to drinkups, smoking when we go out and more shit. Months went by and fwark we got pretty close, slowly made our own little brotherhood shit. It is cute if we think of it now but fuck we were all like blood brothers, it started it of with just 5people, months went by and one by one people started to drift off and change fuckedup-ly. Then it was just me and you. We have been through shit together, I wouldnt say alot but its quite abit. The 7am Fairfield days is an example LOL fwark so much has happened between us in the last 4years... And now I am not gonna see you as often as we use to. I am gonna be honest, I am gonna fuckn miss you, everything started with you, being who I am now, smoking, the girls, fucking everything....I am not angry, I am more happy that I met you in my life cause I know you will always be a brother to me, no what happens, I will always be by your side. Hearing that you will leave the family, shattered my heart but I know where your coming from I would leave too...but idk its just hard on my end. Family is family, most people in the family can go fuck themselves haha. All I know is that, we are still brothers, and hopefully chill out like we used to 4years ago...

In The End It Pays Off

Ok, So today I was treking it to places here to there, fucking boringest shit I've done. All I did was listen to music throughout the whole trek and I was getting sick of it. Afterall all that, this friend of mine shouted me dinner and a couple of drinks. It was alright but I still preferred staying at home or chilling out.. Atleast me and my friend had a good time at dinner (:

There Is More To Life

Than just money, partying and all this bullcrap. Fucking today had some birthday party and fucking people think they can walk over me? you fuckn serious? You dicks havent been through the shit I have been through....

New Year Revolution

• Study fucking Hard !!
• Make money
• optional.....get a nice girlfriend heheheh (x

What Went Wrong?

I always still wander, why did you do this? Was it something I did? About to do? Or did you really follow some bullshit rumor? Everytime I see your name, a million images and thoughts run through my head about you...sooo whyyy?

What To Do...

I am literally fuckin bored, going school, going out, see this see that. I am practically bored with life, nothing interersting....Money this money that, money always comes first, sometimes I wish I just win the lotto or find a suitcase with 1million inside it and thats it, set for life, fuck around as much as I want.

Rough Bumps...

So I have this friend who is going through a rough bump in life, pretty much problems just like stacking on and its hard to get out, or like falling into a deep hole waiting untill you hit something. I dont blame him for getting into this mess. His a nice guy but his not selfish enough...but I know I am gonna help him through this bump (:

Beautiful Sadness

I was watching South Park the other day and I came across when butters said something cool (:

I Had A Good Day (:

Today was alright, started off with me waking up with the best sleep hehehehe then ended up at a soccer game, Sydney FC vs. NewCastle Jets. Even though Sydney lost 2-5 it was a good comeback at 2-3. Even though I wasnt even a fan of soccer every time when Sydney almost or scored a goal, I would jump out of my seat and scream my lungs out LOL then home, once I got home, I got bored so I called my brothers. Its always good to talk to someone on the phone. Had a 3way call with my brothers, fwark at the time I wish it wouldnt end went on for like 2hours LOL but I know us 3 they are my fuckn brothers not in blood but in bond (:

Pretty Face

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with family, but shit is getting out of hand. Its not how it used to be anymore, things have changed and I have to admit everything does change but I don't like this change and I don't know if I can cope with it. New people, within a month got the fkn tattoo already? you're kidding me right? I wouldnt say old gen but yeah, the older people. We earned our tattoo.... and it took awhile... Everything's changed, and its all about how pretty your face is and mine, mine is fuckn ugly. Well you who are in this world, and it only goes two ways, you're either a somebody or you're a nobody.

Sleeeeep

I want more sleeeeeeep. I swear I got insomia

Chinese New Years

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS !! (x
well today was ok, had a brother over in the morning, drank beers and eventually went down hurstville to eat. Sorted out some bullshit 2faced cunt and played pool. It was ok, got to play pool with Allan's boys and defeated both of them eheheheh mission accomplished ^^ ahhh valentines day is around the corner D:

My Brother Jay

When I first met him, to be honest he was scary and looked like he wanted to kill someone LOL but thats just on the outside. Weeks went and I got to know him more, all I know he was in my good books. Months went by and I realized me and him been through quite alot since his always there to help a brother out, when ever I needed someone to help me with something, it did piss me off when boys say 'cbf' but out of all the boys, Jay was there, always... I almost knew him for a year now and I love him to fkn bits, even it hasnt been that long, I know for a fact that he is my brother. Well for his 18th birthday, we made a small drink up down my house. Even though it wasnt much, it still meant something to all of us who were there. And the funniest bit was when were all tipsy heading up to hurstville to play pool, we saw Allan's boys, all we wanted is to say hi and the next thing you know were drinking inside that karaoke room. All I know is that I got drunk LOL but I hope you had a good 18th birthday Brother Jay, I Fuckin Love You ♥

Not a good photo but its all I could find with just me and Jay ><"

The Part Of The Day Where You Have Nothing To Do But Talk

Today was ok. Nothing new happen. Woke up, brush my teeth, went hurstville, coffee, pool, dinner. But then, me and a brother of mine, talked for literally 5hours or so. Just me and him, one on one, sat there smoking and talked. We talked mostly about our past, fighting, girls, alot of stuff. I like doing those kinds of stuff. And I have to admit, it was a good talk (:

Webcamming

Skyping with this whore last night. Nah jokes she is not a whore, but she is one of a kind girl, One of my cool friends. Made my fucking day (:

Let Go And Look Forward,,,

Yes, it's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life would be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a  bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it

Work Work Work. Today work 8 hours....dumaaaa, rents leaving for 1month today, I am gonna miss them. Time to start becoming responsible haha (x

Brotherhood

Ok. So today I realized who I trust and not to trust. Who are my true brothers and who are not. People who will jump in a fight for me. People I can rely on. People who I am comfortable with. Finding these types of people are hard nowadays. I have money to spend, cigarettes to smoke, alcohol to drink, drugs to be taken, just the people who I can trust and who are loyal is what I need. But then the saying goes. One is always good enough.

Relationships

To be honest. Not really looking for a relationship right now. Ceebs with girls right now. Just wanna chill relax and enjoy life rather than having a girl in my life already. Think its time to take a break (: drinkdrinkdrink time (x

Long Days

Today was pretty interesting. Met up with a girl, chilled with her all day and then met up with boys then chillied. It was a loooooong daaaayy. Every moment of today, I just wanted the day to go by, glad to be at home now. I knew I shouldn't have went out haha

I'm Not Who I Used To Be

Why? Because I have been hurt. I've gone through alot of shit which has made me who I am today. Over these past years so many things have happened. Little things, big things, everything. As time passes no one stays the same person. People tell me that I have changed...Dont you think I know that ? Of course I've changed, I am not going to stay the same person forever. Pain does that to some people.

Stupid Drama's

Yeah thats right, I am seriously not bothered for these stupid drama's. Sometimes I just want to tell you grow some fuckn balls and let it go. Girl problems and guys too, I seriously ceebs. These are one of the reasons why I am better of alone....

Welcome Back To Sydney

I agree with you, I think it is better off what we are now. It was good to see you after 39281472394 days, well it felt like it was a long time. Still couple weeks of holidays, I dont mind me and you hang out like the good old days, coffee down diamond, chill in the city, but like I said, the good old days. Anywhoooo time to dye my hair back to full black (x

When People Fall

So I have this friend who is falling for some girl who is out of her league, but at the same time another girl wants to see him often. I find it cute yet funny like no joke I crack up hehehe I find it entertaining to see people fall for people. So pretty much, his thinking either to stay loyal to the girl she likes or go for another girl who might have interest with him whilst I am sitting on the sidelines, laughing my ass off (x

Another day in the city

Okay so today I went out. Even though I could've stayed home and slept, I chose not to and chose to go out to see other boys getting there tattoo's done. It wasn't that great nor interesting. Now an addition of 4 boys having the same tattoo. Pretty cool I guess. After tattoo session done, we all went out to eat lunch. Minh Hai was the restaurant, just like a Miss Saigon but just in city :L Whilst were eating, never knew boys respected me so much/looking up to me. It was cute, they full saying ''dailo you eat first'' LOL well I found it cute. Then we pretty had some dmn bout old days haha. It was good (:

Guys

I swear to fucking god, some guys need to grow some fucking balls and not cry over stupid little shits.

Old Days

Sometimes I wish I could rewind back time and live the old days. No trouble, No Problems No Worries. Everyeone were friends, no bullshyt drama and where family is family who look out for eachother, I dont even see that anymore...ahwell can't live the past just have to look forward.

Chill Days

It's always good to have a chill day, meaning have time to yourself . No boys, No girls, literally nothing to bother you. I had a good day (: